On Post Traumatic Transformation

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I don’t think I’ve changed so rapidly in my entire adult life as what I have in this past year and a half.

Something in me has shifted. In such a huge way. In, I think, I hope, a really positive way. It’s been excruciating and wonderful and terrifying and exciting. I’m not at all where I thought I would be, I’m not even climbing the ladder I thought I was dedicating my life to, but this new ladder, this new place where I find myself, feels better.

“Have you heard of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder?”

“Yes.”

“Have you heard of Post Traumatic Transformation?”

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I’m working as a Clowntern with the clown doctors at the children’s hospital and am absolutely blown away by how much joy and meaning it gives me. It honestly feels like therapy for me, I really can’t believe how much it’s lifted by mood. I feel like I’m on this incredibly unexpected and beautiful path now…and my heart and mind are on fire with what is possible in this field.

I want to write, I want to perform, I want to find ways to combine humour, play and improv and share them to help make people’s lives better: families, people living with physical and mental illness, the elderly, small children, carers, people who are grieving, people who are taking care of a dying loved one…my mind is boggling.

11947526_885354798179802_528897979742552467_nI never in a million years would have found myself here had it not been for the transformative event of taking care of mum last year. I always knew it would be a life changing time. It just never dawned on me for a moment that it would set me on an entirely different path. And the fog of grief and pain has lifted enough now to realise how tremendously, deeply grateful I am for that.

On a side-but-related note, ABC’s program Australia Wide did a story about my entry into the clown doctors’ world, it’s still on iview for the next couple of weeks, you can watch it here

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I’m a comedian, cabaret performer, improviser, writer, Clown Doctor and mother of three. In other words, I divide my life between strutting around onstage like the egomaniac I am, dolled up and trying to win the love of complete strangers and wrangling kidlets.

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