Getting a Little Big Emo and a Lot Overwhelmed…

Ahhhhh, those were the days...

I don’t even know what to write right now. My head is a bit all over the shop, truth be told.

Allow me to outpour.

I’m crazy busy rehearsing every night, doing publicity stuff between tantrums during the day, trying not to beat myself up too much for not being mother-of-the-year, trying to motivate myself to get the slow cooker cranking before 3, and trying to deal with the emotions that are coming up from doing this show. I am TRYING!

Because this show, if I haven’t mentioned it before, is insanely personal. And I do mean insane, as in, sometimes I question whether I’m nuts doing it.

But then, as I said to my sister-in-law last night, the show is now at a point where for the first time ever I can honestly say that it doesn’t even matter to me whether or not it’s a “success”.  Because the “success” has already happened in a way: I have a show that – for better or for worse – is authentically me.

Very excited. And emotional. And crazy.

xxx

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4 Comments

  1. June 16, 2011
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    Oh Jen it sounds full on…. well love you lots and lots… huge cyberspace hug…

    PS: my girl is 12 tomorrow!!! and doing a movie party for her and 10 of her friends…. whew – thats my kinda of insane haha – I can’t even imagine what you are going thru with all you are doing…. xoxox

  2. Franipantz
    June 16, 2011
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    Hang in there Jen! The emotions will settle the more you look them in the face and say “yeh righto, I see you but I’m still doing this so get used to it.” And they will. Some people think I have have some artistic talent that’s being lying latent for long periods. Truth is – I only get it right through sheer dogged persistence. Trying is the best we can do. And don’t worry about the kids – they’re housed, watered, fed, educated, both their parents LIVE under the same roof (already better off than 99.9 percent of the worlds kids), and I bet they have a lot of fun – if not it’s time they learned to make their own (it’ll make them more creative and self reliant people). They all have tantrums regardless of how great their mums are, in fact some are worse the better the parents are. So leave guilt by the door cos he’s just an irritating, smelly and relatively useless emotion.
    Of COURSE you’re nuts Jen. And we wouldn’t have you any other way! You’re like a multicoloured sheep that has decided to be a lama cos they look like they have more fun.
    Go forth dear Lama and BE the success. Hehe! 🙂

  3. kris sinclair
    June 16, 2011
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    all the very best for your next show. Would travel from the U.K. to see it if I could. Anyway, I think it will be a smash hit! Needless to say, prepare more material than you think you’ll need and promise me you’ll enjoy it as much as I know your audience will!

    All the very best

  4. June 22, 2011
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    That is so very lovely of you to say!!! Thank you so much for your kind words from afar! I hope to make it to the UK sooner than later, fingers crossed!

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