2012 Goals and other Shiny Things

Goals.

Yes, I know, I know, carrying on from my last post about the year that’s been, clearly I have absolutely NO lightbulbs going off at all as to how to go about lowering my ambitions. I know all about the ‘why’, but it doesn’t translate into any tangible changes.

As I watched Eddie Izzard’s “Believe” doco again the other day, this time with my sister, it really struck me how even though he came to the realisation that his ridiculous over-achieving compulsion was directly related to his early childhood trauma of his mother’s death, evidently, just knowing it is not enough to actually change it. For instance, since that doco was made I believe he’s run something like two billion marathons, day after day, all in the name of charity.

Point is, understanding the why of your behaviour, doesn’t automatically equal changing your behaviour.

You may hereafter refer to me as Doctor Phyllis.

Anyhoo, being the change-impaired ball of compulsive “doing things” that I am, I have made my usual list of year goals, however this year I am doing so with the help of Accompl.sh.

I’m not sure if it will help me any. I tend to jump on the newest and latest exciting bandwagon all the time, only to get a little distracted by the next bright and shiny thing that comes my way. But heck, why not?

Oh look! Something shiny!

More Pip and Pop. Are you not helpless in its wonder-grips?
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4 Comments

  1. Berny
    December 4, 2011
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    I so get the distraction of something new and shiny! I am a great starter, great dreamer, but a suck-at-totally finisher. While my goals are in a totally different vein, I do find that the easiest thing to get me motivated to complete some of my UFOs (Unfinished objects) is to buy something new that is related to it. Doesn’t have to be expensive. I bought a funky new pen from smiggle that has blue,black,green,purple,pink and yellow ink to motivate me to complete my BAS!! I also plan something so magnificently fun for when I have completed my horrible but essential tasks. Like eating a huge piece of Pavlova for doing the ironing… XXX

    • December 7, 2011
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      Ooh yes. I think it’s a personality type. Something about “the sampler”, we like trying out lots of different things but because of that, sometimes we just like to find the novelty of whatever the next exciting thing is. Sounds like you’re channeling the novelty factor into productive directions though!

      Pavlova and ironing! Mmmmmm…..it would probably take an entire pavlova to get me ironing, hmmm, now that I think about it, bring on the damn iron!

  2. Franipantz
    December 5, 2011
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    Well, being a person with many self-perceived ‘flaws’ I can certainly related to wishing to change something about myself so I can be a happier more fulfilled person both personally and professionally, and it’s rare when those two parts of us a separate. We are what we are, and sometimes what seems like a ‘flaw’ to us, is something others admire and aspire to. It doesn’t matter what other people think of course but it can help bring a little perspective sometimes. Often, it’s our drive and high expectations for our own abilities that send us flitting about trying to do and be everything we can be, experimenting with every possible avenue that gets us to where we want to be. Butterflies might seem like they flit around on the breeze but they are actually very specific about where they drink their nectar. It might not be every flower that produces the most or best, but if we keep trying every tree of a certain species we’re sure to land on the richest and best spoils. Away from entomological analogies, I think we ‘know’ when we find something that deserves our full attention, and until then we’re gathering information and collating ideas that will lead eventually to epiphany. Until I produce a masterpiece, everything else is valuable practice, even if it never produces real fruit of it’s own. The drive to spend time and dedication to being a creative butterfly (no matter where that motivation comes from) is your greatest tool towards finding your own version of success and fulfillment. So don’t dis that part of you or try to be something you’re not. Appreciate it, embrace it, enjoy it – it’s life. It’s part of what makes you YOU.

  3. December 7, 2011
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    Frannie, that’s a really interesting way to look at it, thanks. I do feel like I beat myself up a lot about just being the way I am, always trying to change it, rather than just embracing it. Maybe I need to try that for a change…in a funny way that’s still trying to improve myself… perhaps my desire to do that though is just part of me?

    I think I’ve just caught my brain in a weird loop on this train of thought….!

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